Wednesday, September 06, 2006
hey everyone... i miss "him" so...i wonder why "he" neva cum online...ask "him" liao...den wait de whole night....still neva cum online...how do i make dese feelings go away... mixed feelings...i admire nafis....like him even adore him but its not de same as i feel for "him"....for "him", its a bubbling sensation i cannot comprehend...i oso dunno why sameer ignorin me...anyways sameer is a dear friend...wx say i lubbe him coz she believe i am a perfectionist....n sameer IS perfect....(grin)....but dunno leh...i don think so...yeah my heart flips weneva he cums online n we chat but still dunno leh!!!...so confused.....but de "him" still neva cum online....so long oredy (3days) neva tok....den today he cum online in de afternoon den i tell him meet me online at 8.30 den neba cum....den afternoon i still make him angry...i stupid lah....i call him dumb*** den he angry...sigh...i oso dunno whethe hhe like me anot...mayb as a fren but not beyond tt....i oso noe i don lubbe him.....jz wanna hav sumone by my side....yeah nafis is dere....n i luv him for being dere but its not wat im lookin 4....wx got hooked onto zy...den mady got hooked onto hafiq...everybody soooo like in heaven.....but den i got yq beside me at least....my companion....sounds stupid....but ayia who cares??!!...i need to vent my frustration...mayb dis is all a dream n tmr i will wake n realise tt i still luv nafis... or mayb prince charming will cum n carry me away in his shiny, sleek, black horse....n den we will live happily eva after n be in luv....but tt got to wait coz i still got my PSLE....sianzz...my mother bitchin all day long to make me study....can eat her alive....chew chew...so disgusting in taste i believe....hahaha....anyways i still so confused abt luv....still waiting 4 my prince charming....sumone to sweep me off my feet....i will keep dreamin all my life n die unhappy i guess....haix...keep on dreamin...ask my prince charming to kiss me awake if he cums....hahaha.....bye...gtg liao...mom screamin again....
Twinkled @ [ 6:57 AM ]
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